Ups and Downs

So, I'm pretty excited about happenings on Saturday. Yay! To tell you what the happenings were, I'll start by saying that I'm a bit confused about myself. I used to love McDonald's. My brother and I would always try to talk our mom into taking us there for our favorite burgers, fries and, of course, shakes. Then in High School I worked at McDonald's. After I quite, I was so sick of the stuff it took me years to try it again... now I have this weird thing, where the smell of McDonald's and eating it makes me sick, but I still want to eat it... Wait, what? How does that even make sense?

Well, Okay, back to Saturday. So, I went to meet a friend at McDonald's, because they have the best WiFi that we could find, and I managed to go the whole time without eating a single thing! When we got food, he got a full meal and I opted for a fountain drink. Diet, of course. He got one of my nostalgic favorites, but I managed to stay my hand and say no thank you. Victory!

I've been retraining the way I think about food and ways to combat cravings with my mind, and I think this is a good sign that it's actually working. What I do is, when I see something that I think I want, example donuts, then naturally I'll think about the donut a lot and how good it'd taste, etc. When those cravings start, I remember my goals and then I continue to think about the donut, but this time, when I bite into it in my mind I'll imagine that there are stringy hair trimmings in the center that I just bit into. I think about the texture and the thought that I have someone's hair in my mouth and I have a mild gag reflex. Sometimes it's hair, other times it's worms, or larva. Either way, the craving instantly disappears and I can walk away and distract myself before the craving tries to resurface. It makes fighting cravings so much easier, and eventually it becomes natural to not even want those things anymore. I've trained my mind this way before, but alas, tumblr helped me slip back into old habits, and I started using this technique less, so now I'm trying to use it again, and I'm pleased with the results!

I ran outside again on Saturday, and I did so much better. I mean, it was still exhausting, and I need some better/different running music, but it felt good, and I was able to keep up with my PR. So that was really nice.

EDIT: So, lol, wow. I named it "Ups and Downs" with the intention of talking about how bad my day was Sunday, but I forgot. So here's a tiny rundown.

I work the Tech booth at my church, so I was late, because I forgot I was scheduled to work that day, so no breakfast, no problem, right? haha, yeah, no. I ate fruit snacks (which I love) and a fair amount of oatmeal, which wasn't terrible, but then we went out to eat for lunch at a breakfast place, and I got Eggs Benedict with Hash browns and scarfed down the whole plate. I think it tasted good, but I ate it too fast to remember and I literally stuffed myself to beyond full which made me feel a bit sick afterwards... oops.

Then I was working on a paper that took me way longer than I think it should have, and I snacked on Reese's cups into the late night, which meant I skipped my Monday morning run to sleep in. bleh. I need to remember to eat a proper healthy breakfast.. it really helps prevent me from falling into a mindless eating frenzy.