Bingeing and Purging..

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So, the November challenge started out pretty well, actually. I had a successful Fast on Sunday regardless of having gone to the movies that night. However, Monday was not a very good day, but Tuesday turned out well with only Soup (200), Grahmcrackers (550) and Milano cookies (370) for the entire day. But then yesterday...

It really didn't start all that bad, but I have this particular weakness for these Asiago Bagels (and well, bagels in general) at this little shop in the train station where I commute. I noticed that I always crave more sugary and bready things once I indulge this weakness. It seems to happen when I eat almost anything bread or pasta related, but anyways.. I bought two and ate them for "breakfast" and "lunch". I also had caramel flavored coffee and a petite vanilla scone from Starbucks. Really and truly, that wasn't so bad and I still had the chance to finish the day on a good note.

Oh no. I binged. I binged pretty bad last night. Granted, it was kind of a planned binge, because all I could think about for the rest of the day was sugar and I argued that I was going to start something "tomorrow", so I have only myself to blame for getting 10 oz bag of chewy, sour Jolly Ranchers, and that Sea Salt Caramel Gelato (Oh my gawd! It was AMAZING!!!! In the worst possible way....). So I ate those as well as a hefty bowl of spaghetti bolonaise that my dad made.. I tell you, I felt down right sick after consuming all that junk.. Unfortunately because of that, I ended up purging for only the third time in my entire life. It scared me.. It really scared me.. It scared me to think how much easier it was this time compared to the first two time, and how little it effected me afterwards.. I always told myself I wouldn't be one of those people.. I wouldn't purge. I wouldn't ever enter that cycle of bingeing and purging. Even if I genuinely felt ill, I would keep it in and sit with those feelings of regret and anguish. I would suffer through it.. But all I could think about last night was how much better would I feel if I could just get it out. I didn't want to sit with the pain, I didn't want to leave it in there, I couldn't take it. So, I took the "easy" way out in order to stop the pain.. only to find that it's been leaving me with a different kind of pain.

This is the last time though! No more! I will not let myself get to a point that I fill sick from overeating. On top of my plan for November, I'm issuing another, small challenge. It'll only be a week long test, just to see if I can do it. I'm going completely vegetarian for a week. No meat. No bread. No Candy. No Chocolate. No artificial stuff. Only fruits, vegetables, nuts, and a small amount of dairy (Mostly eggs). I need to end this artificial sugar addiction and replace it with real food and nutrients.

I'll try to start small. Baby steps. If I can make it through the day on coffee, water, fruits and veg. Then... I'll go to sleep satisfied.

Hope things are going better for you.
Stay Strong!

Stating a November Challenge.

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So, I've been thinking about this for a while and I'm not doing anything spectacularly different, but I'm going to sort of challenge myself this month. I want to try this new technique, and record my progress on a monthly basis. That being said, I'm going to post my body and weight related stats at the end of this post and the end of every post as close to the first of the month as I can. I was also thinking about doing pictures, but I didn't have time to do those this morning, so I'll probably take some tomorrow and edit this post. We'll see, I guess.

So, to start, I'm trying out this strategy I found a while ago. I applied it to my life at the end of last year, and it worked out pretty well. It's called Intermittent Fasting. It's a newer study that has been researched and has always seemed pretty interesting to me. This link has a nice documentary about the subject where a British man explores the research and tries it out for himself. I really love BBC shows about weight and diets... they're really inspirational and just interesting. I'm going to Fast every Sunday and restrict my portion size during the rest of the week so I don't suffer from the hunger pangs as bad. I'm in the middle of my first Sunday Fast, and it's not too bad so far. The nice thing about working a full shift in the morning is that despite being surrounded by delicious pastries and syrup ridden drinks I'm too busy running around working to even think about eating and it's easier to ignore hunger pangs when they do come.

The second thing I'm going to try doing is drink far more coffee. This seems weird, but I found out that because I work at Starbucks, I can't help but be on a caffeine kick for my 8 hr shifts every weekend due to all the ground espresso and aroma filling the air whether I drink it or not. I can't not be addicted, so during the week when I try to not drink coffee I end up being really tired and get lots of headaches. This combined with working late into the night on various projects for school means my body is constantly looking for high-sugar and high-fat foods to get quick energy. So, I'm going to drink more coffee. I hear it's a good appetite suppressant, so that works in my favor as well.

I'm also using my rubber band again! Keep me from thinking about those horrible sugary treats that I love so much.

So, that's that. I'm ready to get started and see how effectively I can change my lifestyle for the better! I'd like to see a nice difference by the time summer comes around. I have lots of plans and I want to be fit and ready to take on the world!

What kind of plans do you have for November?

Stay Strong!

Age: 26
Height: 5'7"

HW: 174 lb
LW: 138 lb
GW1: 130 lb
GW2: 120 lb

UGW: 115~118 lb

Breasts: 36 in
Waist: 28.5 in
Hips: 37 in
Arms: 10 in
Thighs: 23 in

BMI: 21.92
BMR: 1456.7
Bodyfat %: 25.85